A telephoto view of two large Mexican mountains next to Mexico City. Iztaccíhuatl and Popocatépetl, the second one is the volcano that became active recently.Kodachrome 25

By Isis Win

A zillion things have been said about Covid 19, most false, exaggerations, and conspiracy theories that sprouted like mushrooms in the rainy season. So far, the only consistent and valid statement about it is that there is little known. Although that brings concerns about the threat, reality points towards while improving that knowledge, and while all this is happening, scientists from all over the world are working 24/7 to find the answers to stop the spread and death rate of the disease. There are gains achieved so far, but the answers still have not developed the means to stop it.

I find it as toxic and detrimental the level of misinformation spreading faster than the disease itself. Those fallacies only increase the level of existing anxiety, and such creates a series of waves that make the situation more dangerous. We know quite well, humanity is not capable of managing the unknown, the new in real-time, much less, considering that the unknown factor is life-threatening. As we know, this threat comes in two flavors: the potential consequences of the disease and halting everything for months. The level of uncertainty resulted from this can be seen as the catalyst of many other crises arise from the virus.  

Among questions and answers, false or reliable, the main question can only be: what is the true potential of acquiring the disease, to avoid it, and how to adapt to this new reality. Although proper answers are available, it is not simple to discern from what one side says and the opposite one. Dr. Fauci now recommends the use of googles, which make sense, since the virus can penetrate via the eyes. Did I get it that way?

When it comes to questions beyond the scope of my knowledge, I only rely on the information provided by the authorities of the case. In this scenario, scientists are the only authority. Whether there are contrary opinions or not, I simply focus on the credited sci groups providing information. Not what everyone else does, because to do so, it requires finding the proper channels, understanding stuff that is as foreign as the entire universe. Still, at some point, it can be understood, somehow manageable.

I pop questions on my own that are not clearly responded by any source. Such as, is PPE a secure way to avoid contamination? I believed so until, regardless of all the protection I used, I was contaminated. Being one of the “lucky” people that suffered “mild” symptoms compared to those relying on the emergency room, I dare to say: I am glad I survived, I am so happy I wore protection, and I am more pleased I was not the conduct to infect others. However, there is a dichotomy between the info I rely on and my personal experience.

I push the idea in my head, “If I am OK, there is not much to be said about it.” Then, my mind immediately responds: You already know Covid is new and unknown, so be it! OK, I can do that, but that will not stop me from questioning and questioning until I arrive at sound answers. Answers that serve no one but my own head. The reason I am writing this – simply is- that we have to be very careful of the disease as the spread of thoughts that come out of the new reality of today, in our head, not from reliable sources.

Post-infection; I consulted with two institutions to provide me answers. First, I went to the hospital to get a check on “Do I have the disease?” and the second, a private clinic where a physician I know from before, would check if it were Covid what I experienced. The hospital test provided two answers: The first one, the attending physician told me in his view, I passed through Covid considering the symptoms I experienced. As well, the lab results claimed I was positive for the antivirus caused by the disease. The second physician as well concur with the assessment. Again, no one was contaminated by myself.

More questions popped out of my head, the 1st one: How many people have experienced the same case like mine? In this scenario, it is impossible (says my head) that such a person did not do what was necessary to avoid spreading the disease. For instance, my symptoms were: tremendous lack of energy, total lack of appetite, massive body aches, an acute level of dehydration I never experienced before, but, more importantly, the most potent headache I have ever experienced. It was so massive and painful that any move made me feel my head was exploiting. The terrible symptoms lasted just a couple of days; the others still linger and linger, but again, since I am alive, all checks OK. I did not have chest pain, and I was vigilant about that because I have asthma, I am a smoker, and I am in that age that is at high risk. However, once I suspected it could be Covid, I used my nebulizer more often than usual to make sure my lungs were as expanded as possible. As well, is started to do breathing exercises to keep under control of my lungs. So, all worked whether because I am O+ blood type, I am under an estrogen regime, some scientists suspect it helps to avoid significant symptoms, whatever the reason is, I am here writing this blog.

I know there are thousands and thousands of people that seem to disregard this threat. Breaking social distance protocols, do not wear any protection, and simply live their life as if Covid is a conspiracy theory. Everyone is entitled to live their life as chosen, but the question in my head always is: what about spreading the disease furthermore? Hundreds of reported cases around the world state that all sorts o these large gatherings resulted in dozens of new instances, always causing fatalities among them.

I get concerned about people exposing themselves to death but looking at the facts of their behavior. I became numb, that is their business, and I hope they are already immune or have mild symptoms like me, and they do not share their bug with others. There is another factor that takes precedent over that: how long will the diseases hang around with such a non-precautionary attitude? But a new question came to surface in the last couple of days, as a result of further scientific released information—the potential secondary effects of the brain swelling that provided me that massive headache. I visited my physician yesterday, and I asked that question. Her response was she is aware of several dozen people that passed through the same symptoms as mine, and they are reporting effects of the secondary symptoms. Such as: suddenly having a short delay in their thinking or speaking and struggling to find a common word of daily use. Signs that show some kind of impairment in brain functions. However, no scientist knows if they are temporary symptoms, everlasting, they increase in intensity? Nothing! Again and again, Covid is new, is unknown, and there is controversial information about everything related to it. Therefore, the fact that I am “immune” to the disease for who knows how long, does not have so much weight compared to the secondary effects and that pops another as an essential question: will a vaccine avoid that swelling of the brain on everyone? Or the risk of that swelling potentially exists with some people. Well, only time will respond to those and many other questions. So meanwhile, we wait while we continue the lockdown and hope and hope.


Bird’s eye view of Chapultepec trees, MX. ISO 100, Canon 5D 1/100s, F3.5, 80mm

The situation in the US points: there is a sector of the population unable to do simple math. 2+2=4, 2-2=0. But that sector seems to miss that calculation. Example: President Trump declared Covid is not a threat to the US; all was under control =2. In the following weeks and months, the situation crept to the point that more than 100K lives perished, and the number of confirmed infections exceed more than .5M. That equals another 2. Both numbers either result on zero if subtracting – or 4 if adding. That = the assessment shared by Trump is not reliable. Therefore, trust is put under a cloud of doubt. Either we accept that fact, or we analyze our brain’s results.

It is annoying to repeat and repeat the facts that tell us something is creating a stalemate in moments that the country requires to be progressive. Progressive not towards the right or the left, that results irrelevant considering what is a stake. Therefore, thinking linearly does not serve any purpose. The necessary element right there is consciousness. The ability to clearly see the connected components, do the math, and proceed accordingly. Well, in a divided environment, possibly while one considers the situation one way, the other one sees it the opposite. Again, consciousness may resolve this issue.

What we are facing is much more than what an alive person can recall. Corona, for instance. For the benefit of the doubt, I am throwing some nonrealistic elements, the same that could be the consideration of some people in that group. E.g., Covid is an attack from Chinese or China. The conscious thinking process can go in that direction and stay focused on that and miss the results of that attack, which is the critical matter in this case. Another one, Covid, is not as dangerous or life-threatening as said by scientists. Numbers around the world state thousands and thousands of deaths and forecast a multiplication of those numbers. Following a + train of thought and common sense: whatever it is, the spread keeps moving forwards, more people are infected = more deaths. If you do not want to die from it, then your options are: not going out at all or, if so, wear full PPE and keep proper social distance and the rest of the protocols. Doing so may save your life, a bad experience of getting very ill and suffer the results, or not getting ill = the spread have one less chance to contaminate others. That as well = the economy or my return to “normal” life will happen sooner than later—simple math and thinking, not just linearly thinking, presents the right answers.

Racism: the information that triggered this massive campaign to protest police abuse against blacks has been, for a long time, evident. Whether it is justified or not, demonstrating against the police abuse requires doing in a civilized and conscientious matter, or it is throwing gas to the fire. Dr. Luther King or Gandhi showed to the world that avoiding a spread of the fire pacific demonstrating works. However, among the demonstrators, many blacks were allowed to break that pattern. Looting, screaming foul language, braking things is not reasonable. Even supporters of the cause get very annoyed by knowing those facts. Stupid things such as painting a street with a consistent message that triggers the anger from people who disagree with reckoning racism prevail in the country or those who believe it, maybe perceived as gas, have been thrown to the fire. What gain could be there? A white person clearly annoyed, paints black that sign—a no good nor resolved anything. The fire is growing out of proportion.

Facing the Covid threat, the China threat, the Russian threat, the Iran threat, the N. Korea threat, the Jihadist threat, and the list goes on and on = we Americans should stay together and demand from our government to procure all safety actions. Hence, we remain robust and resilient or… Adding a divisive element created by politicians or pseudo politicians, all it does is to break any possible pattern that could ensure safety for all Americans. Simple math is applied.

Anyone with a decent knowledge of history, such as the Briton history, will find that the rulers manipulated the masses to gain the best control of them, therefore exploit whatever is necessary to achieve their goals. In all historical chapters, to provide what is just – to the people they rule – was not true. That example should suffice to understand that if we think linearly and based on the rhetoric of our rulers, the promised gain is never gained. The ruler must be honest, and we must keep the checks and balances rolling, so there is a gain.

There are three parts to the division of what could affect in both directions our future. #1 our analytical process lacks or has the needed investment to do the right math. # 2 what triggers our analytical process lacks or has a proper foundation to arrive at an educated guess. #3 we are or not genuinely invested in fixing numbers one and two, so we arrive at a place in which questions are answered, and the results are visible and reliable or the exact opposite end.

On that note, nationalists wish America would only be whites that pass their approval. That isn’t going to work! Hitler and his people tried to exclusively preserve what they considered the pure human quality human race with their Aryan approach. Did they succeed? What were the results?

Blacks, Latinos, Jews, LGBT, etc. on the opposite side want to exercise their freedom as the USA conceived it. Will that arrive at a solution?

We are facing massive damage, not just to our country and people. Our standing before the world is sinking and sinking, and while some throw temper tantrums, ambitious nations, and people take the place, we temporarily abandoned. Once we want it back, we will find that as history points, a decaying empire decays, and there is no return. An addition of poor leadership and poor followers = 2-2= 0, and we are moving in that direction.

Continuing this pattern financially, we are in doom land if Covid is not over right away. Socially we are in the worse dystopian status a leading nation could be. Therefore, our leadership role stops being such so others can take over that role. Who do we choose to take our role? Historically in the past, not just one nation destroys the leading role of another country. First, the people of that moving upward nation gets involved, then other nations and their people push them all upwards, following suit.

Meanwhile, our leadership and us – are pushing downward. That equals = we lack the right IQ power to protect and defend our nation simply because someone is telling us, we are alright, better than ever, and we have everything under control. Is that so? If you disagree, check with Watson because its response is precisely the opposite.


My mother’s orchids

People talk, people say, and although many, if not most read reliable places to get the right information, so many variations of “reliable” info go around, discredit the truth, people act suspicious and perhaps believe some theories and on the long run, they fail to take care of themselves properly.

Reading reliable data from places such as CDC can be tricky. To fully grab the info, one must observe all the little intricacies of the site, so you have an educated guess. Following is one example of that info from the CDC.


Confirmed         Recovered         Deaths

   9.63M     <?>     4.86M               490K

     +167K                                        +5,336

This is the stats for today 6/26/20

What does the number under the total amount is? Today’s added numbers. The interesting part is the difference between confirmed cases and recovered. 9.63 million Confirmed against 4.86 recovered. The question is, where are the missing numbers between one C or the other one R? What does that mean? Got it? Those numbers belong to the hospitalized people plus the people that either had mild symptoms or are asymptomatic but were tested. That means that there is a potential of five million people around the planet that can contaminate others. OK, let’s subtract almost half a million dead people. That number still is very high to take this threat so lightly.  

Infectious disease specialists are begging the world to stop going out. OK, either you put food on the table, or you help to reduce the spread. We find a conundrum here, and who wants to attempt to respond?

Scientists have suggested that perhaps the best possible way to go out to wherever, is proper wear of PPE. Proper social distance, not touching the face, and washing the hands thoroughly. I see and hear just a few people around the world are doing precisely the proper part of the safety measure. So, against my inclination, I will be redundant.

Proper wear means, using a clean nose and mouth guard every day. Wearing an acetate face cover may protect the eyes from getting infected; otherwise, goggles are recommended. Proper social distance means no closer than six feet, where people are breathing normally. At the gym, running path, bicycle path, etc. where people breathe more intensely, the distance should be longer. Much longer. No touching the face means your hand will not reach the face area. And washing the hands means with an excellent disinfecting soap, no less than 20 seconds and covering every bit of the hand.

Places that have open some businesses are alarmed because the numbers of infected, hospitalized, and deaths are growing as bad as the initial wave of the spread. That means people, even if only a few, are not following these measures, we are doomed for a long time to come.

Face covers protect the person from getting a little bit of those fluids the body expels while breathing, talking, etc. but as well, protect others from being infected if you are an asymptomatic carrier. Social distance is a second barrier to avoid both cases. Washing the hands is as well another layer of protection. It is not precisely known how long the virus may survive on many types of surfaces. However, it is believed that most at least 3 hours. If you remember crazy people spitting on food shelves, produce, even to people’s faces, it is not a stupid guess that someone probably spits on the handle to open your car’s door. Or the handrail at the escalator, you name it.

The significant risk of this pandemic threat actually is not the virus itself, the painful death, or the suffered survival because it leaves organs damaged, not even the economic fallout that threatens everything else. The real threat is, how long is this going to last? One year? A year and a half? Whether a vaccine is developed or not, the risk of a vaccine as history shows is: vaccines may work on some people, but not everyone. In fact, to perfect a vaccine requires loads of research, and meanwhile, some people may die from the vaccine too.

On the other hand, pulmonary diseases leave a severe scar on the sufferer. Their life will not be as it used to be. Today, researchers still are investigating if survivors and asymptomatic people may suffer the effects of the virus later in life. The fact is we do not know enough, although we may adventure to use unrelated stats from other similar diseases. Covid 19 is a new virus, and we are not catching up with it fast enough to avoid several more millions of deaths. Therefore the least we can do is to cooperate – to make sure the virus does not have any place to go ever!


Being lockdown for three months is not an easy task. Millions of people have graciously become quite creative to break the monotony of taking such a smart measure. Three months seem to be extremely challenging for many. Unless you spend your entire day streaming content from the internet or have enough books to read. The truth is: there are so many things to do, other than what’s needed to be done but again, three months? That seems to be an eternity. That might be the reason so many people are adventuring to the external world, where the risk still is pretty high. Not a smart move, but what can you do?

Countries around the world, including those that managed to contain the spread and maintained their numbers really low, are showing a concerning increase of the spread once opening got started. Now, after opening, some establishments are considering to enact another lockdown. Yes, a prudent measure, but the truth actually is that people adventuring outside should be appropriately be dressed on PPE, maintain the suggested social distance, wash their hands, not touching their faces. A common-sense practice is not to be near (6/12 feet is recommendable) to people without PPE in case someone sneeze or cough. I have seen those cases too many times, which announces, “it’s time to run!”

But that is not my topic now. I am focusing on me, the bored chick that is finding more time in her hands than the available things to do. If you have grass in your place, you are blessed. But how many times can you mow the land in a week? I feel so sorry for the people that are enclosed in a small space, like a studio or small apartment. That requires more creativity. Cleaning the closet, the pantry, the garage, the car, the drawers, and everything that we did not have time for it before is a short run for so many weeks. In fact, everything, where I am, now is perfectly cleaned, organized, and ready to start life as known. So, part of my focus, aside from the 100 other things I daily endeavor, is to take pictures.

Whether I use my phone or my big camera, I always try to make images that go beyond the ordinary. I try to bring my personal label, so my picture speaks for me. Many years ago, master photographer Ansel Adams told me that what he shoots, is his imagination. Not exactly what is in front of his eyes. Excellent point, so whether it is the light, composition, or non-ordinary elements that can make an image that is what I look for in my image-making. I have the great privilege of having enough space to move around and on top, with amazing views. So far, I have produced more than 50 images that I consider decent considering the circumstances—the fantastic views of being several feet above the surroundings. I have a perfect view of the sunrise or the sunset. So that makes an excellent opportunity to create a fantastic shot. Rather, fantastic shots, plural. I have been there, have done it. After checking what images I like best, I realized there are just about a dozen of the too many because they all are so alike. I wish I could go out to the street and have many different scenarios to enact my creativity. But I can’t, so what is next?

Although the selected images do no precisely speak about me, the creator, they are good images. So I decided to start posting some of those which I call Covid shots. After a long inspection of some of them, I realized that there was something in them that can be quite easily overlooked. For instance, the cloud formations I see here, almost 360⁰, are breathtaking. Who cares about interesting looking clouds? Moi, I love the movement of the clouds created hundred miles away that change all the time and sometimes seem that they are a battle with other formations. The town where I am, in Mexico, is entirely surrounded by mountains. The winds come from many directions, and it is almost utterly predictable the kind of weather for that day. Not all clouds are photogenic, so waiting for the proper formation seems a good idea. I started to do that recently, and I think I’ll stick to it since it is clear, responsibility, consideration, common sense, and being pragmatic calls for a few more months of lockdown. That, regardless of the other impacts of the threat. Such as money going out and not coming in.

I hope picture viewers and people, in general, enjoy what I post here for who knows how long. Although my main thing here is to keep me creative and occupied, as an artist, I wish and hope that others enjoy them as I have. So here I go, a few images created during this period and a few others I made in the past. Enjoy!


by Isis Win

When listening to some people, I get their message regarding their belief that life is threatened, and it might be a sign of the end of it. Some dare to say only human life while others speak about the extinction of forms of life on earth. Often, when reading the headlines of several mass mediums, I read about an impending threat to life. Asteroids coming our way and with a size large enough to impair all sorts of life by darkening our skies. Or super volcanos activity that may do the exact same. Raising oceans that in their heads may cover most of the grounds where we live. I feel appalled when I hear things like that, but I concur with something that does not deliver the idea to them.

Sensing the end of life does not represent the end of life. That is a choice we all can make in our heads. It refers to the end of what we are in that particular moment, and we are about to enter a new way of being. Spiritual disciplines speak about this phenomenon as the death of the spiritual being transitioning into the new one—something hard to grasp to some people.

Fearing death is rational among us humans. It is not necessarily a good or bad thing, but removing that fear represents moving towards experiencing life in a new way. A better way that enjoys more things and creates a higher state of being. It is said that fear of death is fear to life itself. A potential subjective topic that most likely does not reach an end until the experience is digested. Meaning that we die and are reborn so we can appreciate that state of mind and soul accordingly to our new way of being or perception.

Indeed, we cannot take for granted the existence of physical life, which is closely tied to living on planet earth. Threats that can destroy life, not just humans, are all over the place. Wars, in my view, are the most definite potential to eliminate life as is. However, a nuclear war, for instance, although it can be possible, it is the extreme of how we humans can destroy human life. I see it more like a threat than a potential risk that brings such an outcome. Then we may ask ourselves and the people that make sure we and many others have nuclear weapons. Why do we have them? To entice fear to the potential enemy, so it does not mess with us. As in the case of Japan – that – preemptively attacked us and refused to give in.

Corona brought us a bit of that concern about life. Another Covid virus, according to specialists, can arise and wipe us from living for good. However, the message is not that we are going to die, but we must do what we can to make sure we live. Not just survive but to do what it takes to live our life fully. There are many detractors to get there. Such as our needs that demand heavy working, earning money so we can support our life with those goods but not truly – to live fully. There are several ways to live fully. To land in the right spiritual path, which requires sacrificing things that belong to the survival realm or simple comfort. Facts show that we create a need to improve our life – and to improve it – requires to make it more comfortable. Consumption becomes the sugar pill to live well.

The times we live in today speak about needed changes in many realms. Although those changes may reflect that we must change people, our government, the disparity among people, the power that controls us, etc., all true and valid, but the real changes do not start right there. They begin within, and the results gradually fine-tune the string of our soul. Therefore we take action to change the other things we need to. It is a curve in a process that goes up and down, so things change in another direction. However, for the most part, the course we take is more the result of gravity than our choice and dedication. Take, for instance, Russia converting into the USSR to address the need to remove the power and clout of the abusive monarchical regime, of the time before the revolution. The operation succeeded by removing them and giving a better chance to the neglected, but the reality is that such change made millions of people suffer as much or more than what they wanted to move away. Perhaps the French revolution succeeded better, but still, the will of the majority is waiting for their turn to be addressed.

In this physical order of us, perfection is nothing more than a lame excuse not to arrive at the end of the aspired goal. We are flawed. Therefore we will find more and more items to fix. But that can produce a good sense of living! For as long as we are part of it, meaning we are involved.

If we genuinely evolve spiritually and resume life as fulfilling, it will require not much to fix the angst that history shows is everywhere in the world. The spirit lives in the mind and body. Therefore we need to educate both to live with the real essential things of life, to share them, and to make sure that we no longer we invent excuses to survive but to live. Money does not grant that, but it makes things a little sweller. So that is the answer here? Like in everything else, moderation is the “secret.”

No one knows what happens after we die. However, I can tell you for sure: We do not go to hell or heaven. Those are images created in our heads, so we remain inside the loop and conform to the established protocols. Since we are to stay as societies, we follow suit, but it is not a matter of breaking what already exists to start a different way to approach living. What we need to change, to begin with the right foot, is that we must feel from the core to the covering layer of who we are, that we cannot disfranchise others because they are not like what we are. The secret of living life is to grasp every bit of life, and every bit is you, I, and everyone that still is on the surface of this planet. While doing so, we protect everything there is, and if by any chance we are to die, we do not die alone. Wherever we end up going, we go together and start of a new leg of another life. Not in hell, not in heaven, but wherever we end up. So, maybe we all need to die spiritually, so we are reborn as the people that we are NOW and can enjoy better what we become, we are really alive and enjoy it fully. There is nothing to despise, hate, and dislike, to judge, etc. any human parts of life. I am referring about bringing rebirth in a way that we do the walk of what we do the talk. Got it?


By Isis Win                                                                                                                          1169 words


I bet many readers feel like myself; I do not want more bad news! The situation already is bad news, so spare me from that. I feel twice the weight of that because what I have written recently carries bad news. I am aware anyone wanting to get the updates of the crisis of corona can look for them by themselves and most likely will try to find a reliable source. Not just the opinion of who knows who she is and have bad news to comment about.

I have a compelling reason to become the mailwoman with information that does not alleviate our concerns, angst, etc. My reason, the only reason is that regardless of the position we take regarding this bad moment, we have to chew reality – as is – as well. Almost no one is talking about it, and I hope that someone reading me grasp what they need to figure that our waiting is not to return to what it was before C-19.

I have heard several quite educated people in the field, and most throw one or two little threads to the potential consequence of this crisis. No one knows for sure, but the math is quite simple. Sadly the result shows that this threat can defeat even the wealthiest and most powerful nation of the world. Although our president insists on what some believe that he has done everything necessary to curve the effects of the threat, the stats show the contrary and not even counting the people in the scientific world say. But this is not about him. The important factor is that for as long as we do not get reliable and proven information, we are not preparing for the impending consequences. I wish everyone takes this ride to figure what goes inside, outside, and what is what they believe should happen. Yup! I wish that in four weeks, the entire world returns what I left before the virus. That is not possible, sadly.

I have insisted through my writing that the best possible solutions to everything rely on taking our deserved power and lead our life, country, and whatever comes next in the direction that is best to our entire community. That regardless of who we dislike or do not approve. Otherwise, we leave our future and the future of our children in the hands of someone that does not take a lot of looking; we find that is clueless about what we need as a person. No better example of that nowadays, so we must take that ball and move as we need it.

There are US presidents that carved themselves in history as the greatest ones. Such as the Roosevelts, Theodore, and franklin or Lincoln, well, there are more than a handful. However, not all of them were approved by everyone, and I bet some people despise even the most popular president. Then a sound question would be why? Take your answer, not mine, and respond to yourself this one. Is a team of players good when some of the players want to go this way and the other ones in the opposite? Place that question for the entire country and tell yourself if that is a viable path to bring America to its best and shining moment. Ironically during the toughest times in US history, most Americans join the exact same effort even many were opposed to it! The Grand Depression and the World Wars. That input of the entire country brought America to a standing applause that modeled the rest of the world and the incredible new world capable of achieving the greatest feast ever. We are still America, are we? Or did we change our name, flag, constitution, etc.? We still are great as before, but we have neglected more than a handful of things. Every candidate promises to fix them, but during their campaigning, the specifics were not mentioned, were they? As resilient as the American people are, our politicians should be, and without our pressure, that will not happen. The make of democracy, but the problem is that democracy and government are not truly in the hands of our elected officers. If you do not know who commands our policies, you are in dear trouble and likely will never be happy with everything.

We most top the divide created and ruled by those who direct our future to increase their power for the sake of their special interests. On both ends of the political spectrum, some unhappy taxpayers do not trust the government anymore. It is useless to think this is from the left, this is from the right, and we are going to win our opponents. Your opponents are not a sport’s team! They are members of our government that you or the others chose. Did they deliver what they promised? Not for as long as that does not comply with those special interests. What about our interests? We want migratory reform, not an expensive and useless wall to celebrate the man who did not deliver us that needed reform! But that reform cannot simply be as what the KKK did not so long ago: get rid of all those X%&#!!! From our land or I kill them! One of the major reasons we became the great nation of the 20th century cannot be denied. We are a nation of freedom, opportunity, justice, and more for as long as any of that does not threaten big money potential loss. Such as the pharma, health, insurance, energy sources, etc. that will fight to their teeth their money at the price of our suffering and anguish!

Some people are under the belief that Trump is managing this crisis right. The same people believe he is a generous guy. He is going to pass us money pitching in for our corona suffering. Anyone can believe what you want; again, this is a nation of freedom. But the evidence points clear that he is not in touch with everything but himself, and what about us? Well, we can relax and wait for him to act as our president, but for as long as we do not get our act together, nothing good can be expected! Well, maybe if you give him four more years, there is a chance? If you believe that, I laugh at your face because in his almost four years he has not delivered A Great America Again, does he? So what makes you think you can expect something from the person that said America First but never said who America is! Ad as is, not you nor me, just his chosen elite that put him there when he can barely speak, not much think and way lesser do but to con and the entire nation and spread billions of dollars among them and members of his family. The greatest challenge and winner clearly is the master of the apprentice! And the apprentice got shit! Oh well!


By Isis Win                                                                                                                        1216 words


I have been in a beautiful town in Mexico called Valle de Bravo. the lake you see in some of my recent photos is filled by the series of mountains that surround the town. There is a dam that releases daily large amounts of the daily collection of water. This photo is from the #1 run of water called Bride’s Veil. it is huge and powerful. the boulder you see in front is the size of a car and this section is only one third of the waterfall.

We have a pandemic threat that threatens life by the millions, and no one, absolutely no one is safe – if contaminated. No country in the world will be spare at this point. There is a belief that wealthy people will be safe if resourcing to their wealthy toys such as their yacht, mountain retreat, private island, even the shelter they built in case of a threat of this caliber. No one – read; no one will be spared. The wealthy will have to deal with the loss, massive loss of their wealth, and see how they can manage a new order that never was planned.

This issue is like an onion. Layer after layer to get to the core of the issue. There is no way to jump into the center and tackle the issue for good. A simple way to look at it is = this is a global issue that deeply depends on the reaction not just from others but everyone. Another layer is how we can achieve our desired goals considering that this threat is changing since the starting point, our world as we remember. Nothing can remain as it was while the crisis still exists. Just a tad of knowledge reveals that this will not be a short-lived crisis, and upcoming layers will provide us the possible landscape in our future.

Another layer is what is going on inside of each of us and how we process the discoveries we make, if we are prone to process our inner thoughts, feelings and arrive at the habits we have developed over the years and check what works and not, we found a great start. This change undeniably forces us to go along the changes, whether we want to or not. How do we adjust is the grand question.

Like most today, I talk to a lot of people daily and learn about their views.  Like how do they get informed? How are they coping with the lockdown? How are they feeling about not knowing for sure if their job will still be there because their employer may not survive the financial impact of the lockdown? How are they going to deal with money to support themselves – perhaps others? In general, I talk to them about what is and what to expect.

Frankly, I am surprised that so many are clueless about what is happening and how they can integrate their life to this unexpected order. I know many will be caught by the surprising results when we end this crisis. Maybe time will hook them into getting into the loop, but time matters a lot. As time mattered about how fast and deliberate we reacted to this threat. I can say we flunk in the USA. And still, we are not moving in the necessary direction. Such as having extensive testing, bringing the needed resources in case the release of the confinement people creates another spike (more beds, equipment, health workers, etc.) so can deal with the new issue. Another layer of the onion that we should be prepared before we open anything.

The inner part is a tricky one. With more than 40 years of experience and knowledge about the psychological well-being of men or lack of thereof, I am worried about this layer. Furthermore, by looking at some of the public response about the situation. There are so many layers in this case. Such as disregarding the needed measures to avoid contagion and further spread, the focusing on idiotic theories about where, when, how, etc. this disease comes and a direct culprit of it. On that, so many people, including Trump’s blame of China. The responsibility started by the fact that their authorities aimed to halt a possible panic that most likely would push people to run everywhere and further spread the disease. As well that they were caught by surprise as the rest of the world, and they believed having the situation under control. Later, they attempted to stop the spread of any information that could trigger the mentioned effects. The scientific world report clearly states that the Chinese dealt with the problem properly. There could be better, but they were not because they did not care or were irresponsible, the severity and complications of the issue brought the Chinese mistakes. Same with the World Health Organization (WHO). Their place in the matter involved perhaps hundreds of layers, and they were imperfect. Again, possible a thing or two could be added, but the severity of the issue mostly only allowed them to focus on specifics that were at the time more important.

Now, us, you and I, and the rest. Considering once this is over, we are going to feel, think, and live as we remember, but that is simply unrealistic. The external factors are of extreme importance; at this level, they are irrelevant because the true solutions to the impending effects can only be managed internally in a predictable way. Adjusting is the trick. I do not know how others can process information, but I know that inside of me, I read a message that describes a radical change of lifestyle. Not because my lifestyle is wrong, but my lifestyle will not meld with the upcoming reality. However, I reckon that for a long time now, I have seeing cues about elements of my lifestyle that were not proper/good considering what has been going on with the planet, our country, and large numbers of our people. But do not take me very seriously because maybe I am too much of an introvert, and I always rely on the dialectics of the method to make sure what I am thinking results in an accurate and realistic outcome.

My inner side: On the other hand, I experience sadness by looking at what is right in front of my nose. But on the other one, I feel grateful that this painful experience is forcing me to look into what in the past; I simply glanced and did not do much about it. However, there is one part that changed in myself since I started to discover this. The way I felt and reciprocated to what truly matters not just in my life but this entire physical presence of mine. My feelings of love and gratitude grew tremendously, and the concept of being loved or not – vanished – to loving everything I see, think, perceive, and I am deeply grateful for all of it. In other words, I learned the key to focus entirely in within, make the needed changes there, and I find true and credible harmony in all. Including in this crisis that somehow I knew it was possible to happen anytime, and I feared it could during my lifetime.

OK, we are at the beginning of it, and I am coping with it properly, and believe me, it produces deep sadness in myself, but the result is I am learning the lesson enclosed, and I am acting to the best of my ability. I hope everyone is in that place, keeping themselves safe and finding the teachings of this crisis by dealing with their inner parts and contributing to the well-being of others that are in a much more difficult place. It is the perfect time for that.


By Isis Win                                                                                                                        1171 words


Taking the pictures behind the flyer, way high up. This is the town where I am passing the Corona threat. Quarantined of course!

When I see denial, I recognize it right away; I am an expert on that. Rather, I was an expert after living in denial for so long, but that is another story—a story no relevant before the threat we are facing.

The denial is about the coronavirus and consequences. A threat that a little thinking reveals that the order we are familiar with, no longer will be. A good question about that would be, are the new elements raised by this crisis good? You have your own answer. Mine is that most likely, people at large will reconsider the vanishing order and the changes it proposes. Starting with: taking life and its threats so lightly is plainly unconscious and idiotic.

Except during war times or massive famine, we pass through life as if life will go on as the precise moment we were living before that. I can say, we take life and what sustains it for granted. The best example is how our planet has been changing, and the little we are doing to bring it as it was, even to keep it as it is now. Heavy denial is the culprit. We can assume that recycling more, selecting our trash, and perhaps owning a better energy-efficient vehicle is enough, but the truth reveals that such is not enough. Denial shines highly in that realm.

When we watch the news, if we do, and talk to others, we find that believing in this threat revolves and revolves in tones of conspiracy theories, manipulated information, and a loss of personal character and that is true, that is real. Really? I am convinced most are reacting as if the destructive pattern of the threat requires honoring social distancing, wearing proper protection, and many, helping those whose life is more affected such as the poor and the elder, is the only threat, a threat that nobody wants. However, among the news and what we learn from others – as well – we figure some do not believe it or take it as seriously, what the threat is. It is not surprising seeing this reaction considering this during this crisis, we are almost powerless, and the effects can change everything we know and remember. We do not want to be changed; do we,  do we? NO! Even if remaining as we know it can take our life.

When I lived through the civil unrest in Central America that resulted in war in Nicaragua, the soldiers were killing and disappearing lots of people like nothing. The guerrilleros almost did the same, but I saw too many people disregarding the issue that threatened everything they knew. They acted as if nothing is going to change. Just watch that no one with a gun if looking in that direction. Now we know, Nicaragua is a socialist country and shows no future but more poverty and distress. That is a major change that most people seemed to ignore.

We are not in war, becoming socialist, nor changing anything regarding our country as it was conceived more than 200 years ago. We are changing priorities and how they can affect us, but we are forced to do that now with this threat and crisis. However, we clearly are not in agreement as to what is best to do to eradicate the threat and stop it, so we can start a “normal” life again. The day we all join exactly the same effort to minimize its effect, will be the day we get close to our goal. However, we are far from getting there.

What can we possibly do more? More than we are doing? I repeat myself; we have to do it together, not just some or a few. It is great most of us are acting properly, but the other minorities can affect negatively the efforts of most. I saw a note at Tweeter that says: When we are more concerned about saving our economy FIRST than savings lives, our country already is sick. Opening cities, states, businesses, etc. requires extensive and effective testing before getting there. We are not doing that – even to protect the less affected places, much less to open our economy. Testing is to minimize potential extra contaminations before opening our economy. That means, to keep the ill quarantined and the healthy to return to “normal” life. Still observing social distancing in case an infected person is out on the street and, of course, counting with the proper protection.

Not observing these precautions as testing and full social distancing is a denial. Those in denial are risking their lives and the lives of others too. But that is not the seriousness of the case. What is, is extending the crisis.

Scientists and smart people like German Prime Minister Markel have spoken. They insist the threat is real and requires utmost thinking and reaction. But many other rulers accompanied by their citizens, believe there is no need for any of the suggested precautions. What that shows us is that denial needs extensive work to become part of the true and proven effort to curtail the crisis. Well, that is part of the internal work to ground the feet and act responsibly, morally, and ethically.

Denial, I’ll say, is part of human nature. Nature that in “idea” reduces the stigma of the threat, so we can go on without being wrapped by anxiety and concern. However, that is not a fix to that worry, much less to the problem. It is just a delay. Every single person, threatened by this or that should reflect on the threat and adjust accordingly. That can shorten the crisis many folds, but as well, if we are truly together in a fix, harmony among us can prevent the impending chaos coming from other threats in check.

The main problem here is a little deeper than ignoring the problem. I’ll leave consciousness out of this equation. It deals with the level of education necessary to discern properly what is and not. I am not talking about academic knowledge, I am talking about street education that helps to survive in hostile environments. Sadly, that will require massive changes because, more often than not, what we know has been passed to us through others and accounted as reliable. We really on what others say, not our common sense or our smarts say. Racism is a perfect example. Globality does not leave room to despise others because we consider them different, unprovable, unlikeable, negative, toxic, etc. We all are part of this global order, and we all can be either aided or opposed by those we believe are not worthy of our respect. Law-abiding people should be respected regardless of our ideas. In fact, ideas are just that, ideas, and we will do great to delve into the validity of those ideas to change what is best to ourselves and others, likable or not. That requires information that leads to education. Education offers options that can be effective unless proven, bad, or defective. But proper information, meaning proven and reliable, have almost no chances to be wrong. Again, educating ourselves may provide what we need to evolve in a civilized and harmonious world. Denial is the antithesis of getting there.


By Isis Win


Perhaps the majority of people around the world are aware of the destructive path of this new virus. Scientists, although they already know a lot about it, still are puzzled by some of their findings that find no answers to find a fix. However, they inform us as they learn, and we cope with it as we can. This last phrase is a total fallacy on my part. It is a fact that only a handful of countries are coping with the best possible way with the threat. Us, the USA, are lousy and regardless of the efforts of scientists to warn us about the threat of broad propagation that can extend the quarantine period possibly to several months, and thousands of more casualties seem not believing the threat. I refer to the people still gathering in groups disregarding the mandates and suggestions and absolutely everything that common sense dictates. However, some are getting in the loop. To make it work, we all need to act accordingly to what is happening NOW!

I see beyond the virus’s threat. I see numerous other consequences by having a highly contagious asymptomatic disease. Beyond the danger to life and painful suffering when severely infected, the result will leave threatening marks of heavy pneumonia or organ damage.

The impact of global spread at the speed of a jet put us into a lengthy quarantine that we are not used to dealing with it. A long quarantine affects our emotional state because being in close quarters and unable to continue having a normal life is not natural. Missing going to work/school every day and maybe gathering with friends after work hours not only affects our body but our mental state as well. Our pocket, regardless of any help from the government, will be severely hurt even if we count with substantial savings. After the offered relief from the federal government, that most likely to grow much higher than 3.2 trillion dollars, the expense will have to be paid for it. We can “afford” it now through the massive printing of those mega dollars to bail us out from falling into the largest financial depression in the history of the world and the US. Who is going to pay for that, and how? Millions and millions of businesses will struggle, perhaps shut down because of their loss of revenue. Airlines, hotels, land transportation, restaurants, stores of all kinds, large retailers, just about every service known to people and thousands more, are getting too close to the abysm now. The longer it takes to pull out of it increases this crisis exponentially. Mass media is also challenged. Most people, after a month and more, do not want to know the bad news, and almost every single outlet there is will have to clean their act fully and stop the diffusion of unreliable information. They may have to fold-out not just because they are losing the audience but because people are fed up by their lack of awareness and consciousness about their audience. The health industry is receiving a huge blow too. Not just because of the demands of this threat but the thousands of losses of people in the industry. People will reconsider being part of an industry that was ignored by our top officer in our country and allowed the entire crisis to become a double threat. Politicians, the whole political realm will have to fix itself drastically. Politicians will have to renounce to their preferences and focus on what is needed now and less targeting on the taxpayers and voters. Businesses will have to learn new ways to sell their goods and stop the mentality of use and discard because there is a new and improved version. Energy producers and consumers will have to reconsider all means of energy dependency and use and curtail it to the very minimum.

Socializing will have to change drastically, even when it is announced that the threat no longer exists. The danger will not go away for a long time, and the possibility of a new outbreak will exist for a long time after that last case is pronounced. Who wants to expose their selves and others? As in the case of HIV and venereal diseases, spreaders of the illnesses can be charged with a punishable crime when knowingly they passed it to others. Even the internet and every means of communication will have to change one way or another one. The threat of becoming incommunicado is potentially large if we consider that we heavily depend on satellite technology that can possibly be destroyed at any moment. Consumption will be greatly affected and not for good.  I wonder about service workers not been able to get hired.

Another an accounted result or effect: Once the virus is not a threat, everything, absolutely everything, will have to be thoroughly disinfected. Can you imagine a supermarket cleaning everything in their store to ensure it is perfectly safe? Now imagine thousands of stores, supermarkets, etc. having to do that. That is the only way we can count in a not possible resurgence of the threat.

Everything we know will be affected deeply, and that will change everything we remember before Covid 19. We will prevail and move forward, but doing it exactly as it was before C-19 is a no-no that we must respect. Why? Because our emotional and financial state and common sense will dictate that we look for our known past instead of looking at our present and possible future. We must prepare for a forced change or . . .

Although we can say life before was awesome, it does not take brain science to reckon that a lot was wrong, way wrong. That is the element that caught us by surprise. We were not ready to deal with something like this, and although the majority of the people in the world acted properly, too many did not. That number that acted as if this was a government hoax or their saint will save them instead of I can die also, or I can pass it to someone I care about, that number is a secondary threat. Our only choice is to act according to the size of the threat.

I have heard tons of people saying this threat is karma, and we are paying the price of our lack of consciousness. Well, we are destroying our planet. We are allowing entire species to vanish. We are killing each other because some ideas that in the 21st century are proven false and are the result of manipulation by some kind of greed—the law of cause and effect they claim. My perception tells me that we behave one way or another one, consciously or not. That means we are not prepared to deal with issues like this disease, a major natural disaster, financial meltdown, etc. etc. we are unprepared to deal with global issues like those. If we are as “unlucky” as we have been for almost four years, we will not count on someone that truly can bail us out by leading us in the right direction. We now know what the wrong direction is, right? America First and a Great America Again are just catchy slogans if they do not deliver the good to those that believe in that. What really matters and is us does not necessarily mean you and I. It can mean the benefit is for those that preach what they cannot deliver but not even have the intention to provide it. That prompts for a huge change, but that change only happens if it starts in our own selves. I do not get tired saying the same thing: A broken team will never beat the opposing one, especially if the opponent team is one solid piece with no holes in it. Solidarity will take us in the right direction!

Stay safe and well!


By Isis Win


My previous message speaks about being alone and no place to go. That’s true, but it is not. I have several rooms where to go. Some dark ones some white ones and I visit them as I wish or need. Those rooms are the places within that I can visit and enlighten myself. All are dealing with my inner parts that either I exercise sometimes or I neglect for some no so logical reason, except avoiding.

The ones I exercise are the places that take me to some level of consciousness or to improve it. The other ones are the ones that required attention, but the circumstances did not allow me to delve into it. It is hard for me during those moments or those times to attend them if they are very important elements required to improve something in within. Such as issues in my relationships. Sometimes I discover they are no relevant, but some others I find that they need time to acquire some results. I have found a couple of those during this reclusion. My time in those rooms rendered a precious encounter. Something that will help me with my relating to others in my near future. Starting with relating to myself.

Between the two rooms I mention, I see several things that require my full attention to deal with the times I suspect will result from this crisis, at the end. I mean, changes that will be reflected entirely in my lifestyle, therefore who I relate to if . . .

I have known by previous visits to those rooms that I need to change my lifestyle drastically. Or to make a drastic adjustment about it. That adjustment literally reflects a sort of dropping out of the societal protocols I have followed for a long time. An extreme way of sharing about it is: such as – going a little the hippie way. For instance, my eating habits have to drop out, consuming all food purchased at the stores. I am not just talking about avoiding processed food, which I reckon, it pretty bad for my health. But even produce that is coming from the large producers. It is literally impossible to know how much of that food contains GMO or harsh chemicals. I do not doubt that GMO food is worse than smoking and drinking heavily daily except that those vices at least give some pleasure – lol. GMO food maybe provides me a little joy because I enjoy vegetables and fruits a lot. For instance, I love corn and potato. For years I have eaten them daily, sometimes twice in a day. American corn is GMO loaded, and there is doubt about potato, but I see no justification to believe it is not. However, even the labeled organic food is a grand risk I do not want to get into anymore. Between GMO veggies, food loaded with hormones, antibiotics, and other claimed no dangerous chemicals, I see enough reason to assess that the only healthy way to consume them is by producing them myself. Or to make sure that whoever does it, follows the ancient tradition of growing them without pesticides and any additives to ensure their profitability. Just the way they came from the ground as they did centuries ago. I know it is possible because I have done it for years, but living in the D.C. area only permits doing it during the warm seasons.

There are too many other things that sincerely, I do not know how I could live without as I have today. Like living in a place where I do not need a car. Where a bicycle is supposed to suffice. No TV, cell, internet lines, where whether aerial or ground exist where magnetic fields exist. Well, a place where no magnetic fields can move a needle or any measuring instrument. A place where the news are not so relevant. A place with a sense of community, mostly self-suffices.

As you can see, I am talking about a place where to be with my own self and not feeling I am quarantine for any reason. A hippie place as it was known in the 1970s, but no, I am not visualizing a place where people wear the same clothes for several days, get high in groups, and consider the sun and clouds divine. Well, they are, but I do not practice communion with them.

A place where to enjoy people that are on the same wavelength and simply I appreciate them badly. Talking about that, that place must have a clear blue sky and perfect white clouds. No more acid rain around me. Perhaps that place can be lightened by candles or similar. Activities are going to be a little later than sunset, and getting up with the sun rising to start the day sounds acceptable. No noise of any kind but the wind, the animals, etc. Get it?

Do not take me wrong, I lived in Mexico City for almost 25 years, quite a while in Manhattan, a couple of years in LA and as well beautiful San Francisco and through more than 30 years in the D.C. area after living six glorious years in Guatemala City.  But having the joy and pleasure of those experiences have taught me that life that way is a remote way of true living. Yeah, they are fun and enticing, lots of money can be made in those, but they are a true detraction of what life is supposed to be if wanting to be healthy. In the body, the mind and the soul. I know I know, that was a grand detour to learn from that – so it is time to go on with the real thing.

Well, I have known that for a >long time<, but somehow something distracts me from getting there. I dare to say that a Valle-amanecer-2020reason is pleasure. Yes, the big, modern, and complicated cities where I have lived present opportunities to encounter pleasure. No one can deny that the pleasure of those congested, toxic, and not truly realistic places can be immense pleasure. Actually, places like those have many types of available pleasure. Otherwise, why millions of people choose to live in those? I found tons of pleasure in those cities!

I wonder how much of those pleasures will remain past this crisis. I tend to assume that either they become multiplied several folds, so they stay there, or those pleasures simply vanish. As is at this moment, social distancing is presenting a mighty good question. A question derived from all those cities that, after the suggestion or ordinance to reclusion, refused to comply with it. How are they going to end up? We people tend to ignore tons of important things and have a very short memory. This virus is different because it is so unpredictable but kills a lot of its victims, but it is the same with yearly flu. This past one killed more than 30 million people, is that true? Are we idiots or what? How did we allow that? Why didn’t we stop it in its tracks before so many people died? After this pandemic, we may be going to start to think about “silly” things like that one. Or maybe not, and we forget about Covid 19 in a short time, and we go on. That is enough reason for me to delve into the realization that this type of lifestyle is not me.

The number of thoughts about this – at this time – are so numerous! Health at all levels, dependency about so many things is another one. Money and the desire and need to create a profitable career or way of making a living is another one. How poor is the potential to find true love among all those I believe alienated people in the big cities? Yeah, as much alienated as I have been all this time. Between politeness, political correctness, and the great idea of not burning any bridges, we go around meeting people at a party, a bar, concert even a museum, and we believe there is potential there. Potential about what and how? Frankly, someone finding me to be a potential would be dead wrong because I know about something healthy, and I have no idea how to honor it. Such as getting the hell out of here! Maybe that potential candidate I run into in the big city realizes the same thing, and we move on together? Yeah right!

Maybe I have not explored enough rooms in within, so I find better paths for my future in this changing world and life, right? I do not really know if my intuition is speaking correctly this time, but it is telling really loud the upcoming world will not be as you remember! It is time for a change!

Well, here it is, I am home alone, but I still have plenty of places to go to! I will try to keep you posted if I find a better room or answer.

Stay safe, and be well!