NOW, WHO CAN WE BELIEVE?

Jefferson standing in front of the threatened USA and can’t do anything about it. Ektachrome 100, 280MM F2.8

By Isis Win

Everything in politics or public opinion has been a matter of debate, controversy, and arguing way before my ancestors were born. However, in the past, no so old, the only means of public information were large organs that redundantly checked the information to be released to make it bulletproof reliable. Even during my early days working for TV and written press, my editor expected me to triple check the facts I was about to inform. Otherwise, the work would be tossed in the garbage can. In the recent decade or two, that seems to be changing.

The 21st century was expected to be a drastic improvement to everything known or a tragic end to everything—the half-full or empty cup story. However, we started the century on the wrong foot. After G. Bush Jr took over the White House, we were shocked by the callous attack of Al Qaeda in NY city, destroying the twin towers and killing close to 3k people + the people affected by the toxic debris when clearing the fallen buildings. Then, investigations from the UK and our own intelligence opened the door to accusations against Saddam Hussein about being involved in some category with Al Qaeda’s leader, Bin o laden. The UN got involved, and according to the media reports, Hussein was developing WMDs, including a potential atomic bomb. Saddam was challenged over and over, and no find would justify any military action from the US and allies. However, both countries claimed to have reliable intelligence proving Saddam was a threat to the world because his arsenal and facilities to build chemical weapons were “real.” Bush somehow persuaded our legislators and the American people that we should preemptively attack Iraq to dispose of those weapons. Bush claimed before national television we will destroy the evil, and the attack will be successful, short, and our troops will return shortly after. You know the rest, here is the critical point.

The US attacked without justification Iraq which was the balancing force in the Middle East, destroyed literally everything in a fantastic bomb attack the seemed coming from a Sci-Fi movie. We still are there, with thousands of soldiers even exposed to be killed and the country, well, regardless of the promise a reconstruction effort, it still is in shams. Electrical power, water supply, bad roads, lacking enough health installations, and a constant battle between ethnic groups are their calamity.

That was the beginning of the 21st century, but it did not improve since that beginning. We had a disastrous presidential reaction to the destruction of hurricane Katrine in Louisiana, and we faced the second potential worst depression after the Grand Depression. The following president (Obama) inherited such a bad situation that he should better become seriously ill and quit winning the presidency. However, he did not resign. He faced everything. He found an opposition that would not change their mode, and negotiating anything was a real pain in the ass. However, he produced essential changes and saved the country from falling into pieces that resulted from the mortgage bubble burst. Eight years later, he brought to the US to what other presidents failed to deliver and left the economy rolling upwards. Trump inherited that situation.

After almost four years after Trump as our leader, looking in every direction, we find no results the leader claims to be his contribution to a better America. In fact, those years seem to be a remembrance of much older days in which all the defended civil rights provided by our constitution have been stepped on or did not exist because his position is, and has been to declare war against everything he hates. Mainly everything coming from the Obama administration. He’s got a lot to hate but not only recently. Since his early years, Trump appeared “wearing a mask.” People near him did not see it, and he ripped off hundreds of small businesses, the IRS, people involved in his activities, became known as a misogynistic man surrounded by the most beautiful women of the world, etc. He showed to be proud of all of them.

Most of his hates are everything that is not Anglo Saxon derivate, hates poor people, people that know more than him, and more. Clearly, anyone with essential intelligence would notice; this man hates everything and deeply loves himself. Question: How on earth did he become the 45th US president? The jury still in on the table, but likely, we will have to move forward to fix all the broken pieces after the coming election, and he walks away as he had done many times before.

Through the years of Bush and Trump, we have heard reports claiming the US is in the best place in history, and we are moving forward. Do not give me credit when I ask: where are the proofs? Just look around and double-check the accuracy of their words, compare them to the words from the press, or the legitimate organizations that check and double-check the facts, and they become the official. There is no sector in which Trump’s words check with any side or the heart of reality. To make matters worse, his lies and deceits are so unrealistic and blunt, that he lies in front of the actual data and accuses absolutely everyone if he is caught in a lie. Very few Americans <?> have stood his lies and remain in power, but many others either were fired or removed themselves from that “influential” position coveted with treason.

He claims the press, unbiased organizations, and members of his government are against him, and all that is a witch hunt. Who are we going to believe? That depends on who is asking. The truth, checked not once, not twice, not even three times but more, a large sector of the population (44%) believe him and are convinced he is threatened by deceitful socialists and communists that will destroy the country if he does not have what it takes to get rid of them. Such requires a second term in which he claims; the falling economy can be fixed as he fixed it post Obama. Who do you believe? Therefore where do you think we are at this particular moment?

My closing remark is simple and to the point. If Trump reacted positively – as needed – after the Covid threat was confirmed, the level of infections and deaths would be drastically reduced. Likely, we still be threatened by it and would take time to end it <shorter time though>, but the numbers would be sharply lower. The economy, on the other hand, would show a whole different scenario. Now, the government should bail out at least 70% of the population that owes large amounts of money on loans, houses, cars, you name it, and are not collecting income for, how long?

 The people that do not have income or a much smaller than accustomed need desperately help. In case you have not noticed, all-important goods have increased their price, creating a higher number in the inflation sector. What does that do to you and others?

To save the country in totality requires that businesses remain in business, people receive their income as pre-Covid, the cost of living does not go up and can meet their bills accordingly. Well, that is not happening. The Great Depression taught us, the #1 front to attack is to avoid the fall of the consumer, which created people’s losses of property, work, savings, etc. and became homeless and dependent on welfare. Well, welfare is dying along with the unemployed people. Meanwhile, Trump is selling a second term will fix it. A flat lie that even Biden would reckon if asked: will you return us to our status as it was in 2019, and we return to normal life – and – continue been alienated as most Americans lived pre Covid?

We are not returning to what we call normal in a long, long time. It is too late to gear in that direction. But thinking about the future or the past will not help or resolve anything. I suspect you believe the following statement and consider it reliable: Another four years of this administration as it was since 2016 up to now, will destroy what is left to us. Us, 70% of the working-class, and our lives would turn as the older days before the Great Depression if . . .

We have to be extremely careful about what we believe or not because what is at stake at this precise moment is undeniable: danger!

US DIVIDE BECOMING ABYSMAL

Supreme Court. Washington, D.C.

By Isis Win

The divide is not a new aspect of what rules and determine the path of the nation at any given time. Since the early days of independence’s conception from the Britons, divide existed between those seeking independence and those fearing the wrath of the English. The same divide was seeing through the first election, the creation of the US constitution, etc. Perhaps is a difference existed, that was the level of destruction the divide caused at one time or another one. The reason the US engaged in a domestic war between the north and the south. A war that ultimately brought emancipation for the large numbers of Africans brought by force and against their will. Finally, blacks had the potential to exercise their freedom of will, which is not quite up to today; African Americans still are fighting for their full freedom and respect.

Looking at it from the whites antagonizing blacks’ angle, we may think the situation could be manageable by providing constitutional rights to blacks. Still, those rights have been violated over and over, and today, when the civil rights machine has enough gas to fight against that, this administration cued whites mostly associated with a supremacist mind. Nothing new either, but the divide has grown in the recent three-plus years, that we can see an increase of crimes of hate but not just against blacks. Today, supremacists are fighting the rights of anyone that does not belong to the Anglo Saxon inheritance. That is a large number that questions the validity of being considered a minority.

It is effortless to figure the proportion of Civil rights supporters and those against it. We can say justifiably that the same numbers of people that oppose Donald Trump are the most substantial chunk of this divide. However, supremacists are acting up, and there is no week that a crime against those minorities is committed. However, for the sake of avoiding an increase in the divide/violent reactions, the police nor the press are reporting crimes of hate as they happen.

Being part of a despised minority group almost creates a divide in the mind, that focus exclusively on that particular and personal group. Not that we do not care for the violations committed against other groups, but the need to demand the rights of our specific group, do not leave much time and energy to focus on the other fronts.

My group is everyone belonging to the LGBT community. A significant increase in crimes committed against transsexual women has been taking place in the US. However, this is not exclusive to my country, but again, I can only focus on my own cause. Aside from supremacist aggression in the US, a campaign seems to be enacted against transsexuals everywhere on the board. Social networks have been showing frequent attacks against some TSs, and TSs are responding in their own terms. The level of vigilance in social networks is the new scenario today. Bigots ready to attack and prey, someone, they judge – because it does not fit their ideas of proper, allowable, not even human, and of course, do not recognize the constitutional rights of who they want to make their victim. A rhetorical case in most cases but situations that, at some point, may trigger a violent reaction against their persona, if they are located.

Trump and members of his administration have expressed at many levels disapproval of the transgender community. Mainly, from the apparent standpoint, denying our right to receive coverage of health services regarding the necessary resources for us. Such as medications aimed to address transition and any surgical procedures in the case. As well, the military has received a mandate forbidden transsexuals from joining the armed forces or stay in place.

Another catalyst against transgender people is the recent rhetoric expressed by the author of Harry Potter J.K. Rawling. She claims to have developed a therapy that would reverse transsexuality in young people, mainly kids. A past attempted procedure with terrible results because the method has nothing to do with enhancing self-identity but the opposite. The recipients of such “therapy” were massively abused by the therapist that forced them to admit they are just like anyone else and do not desire to address their gender identity. Parents of the recipients have sued those therapists, and the infamous treatment has been forbidden in many countries. The US has seen a drastic increase of opposition against transsexuals, Rowling, and opponents to this approach. Both currents, the US negation of validity in favor of transsexuality and the British, have influenced several nations to enact hostility against transsexuals.

In my view, part of what is happening in the US is divided into several sectors. #1 the words from DT. #2 the angst of supremacists. #3 the acute frustration and fear caused by Covid. #4. The lack of constitutional protection in favor of all LGBT people. A divide over the divide that ultimately results in the fragmentation of the fabric of the USA. A beneficial status for corruption, abuse, and control over everything from those at the top of the ladder.

It is reasonable to assume all that will change after the upcoming elections. Considering the level of abuse of power from the administration and the recent words from DT, we know that the outcome of the elections can only go in one direction. In favor of DT, otherwise, he is able and willing to fight a lost election because he does not see how the country could possibly be going in the opposite direction of the greatest president of the US. His own words, written and spoken. So we must act before that happens. How? is the million-dollar question. I might be wrong, I believe: voters oppose to another four years of Trumpism should express support for Joe Biden. That will show it is the democratic wish of most of the American taxpayers and voters to have Trump out. If we do not do that, DT will appeal the results and deny moving out of the White House, and this is a matter to be solved by the voters, not by the Electoral College, as it happened four years ago.

So, what’s going to be? The only chance we have to beat this crisis is by increasing the size of the chunk of America we belong to. And to show the opposite end that democracy is what determines the future of us and our country.

COVID: I AM IMMUNE, SO?

A telephoto view of two large Mexican mountains next to Mexico City. Iztaccíhuatl and Popocatépetl, the second one is the volcano that became active recently.Kodachrome 25

By Isis Win

A zillion things have been said about Covid 19, most false, exaggerations, and conspiracy theories that sprouted like mushrooms in the rainy season. So far, the only consistent and valid statement about it is that there is little known. Although that brings concerns about the threat, reality points towards while improving that knowledge, and while all this is happening, scientists from all over the world are working 24/7 to find the answers to stop the spread and death rate of the disease. There are gains achieved so far, but the answers still have not developed the means to stop it.

I find it as toxic and detrimental the level of misinformation spreading faster than the disease itself. Those fallacies only increase the level of existing anxiety, and such creates a series of waves that make the situation more dangerous. We know quite well, humanity is not capable of managing the unknown, the new in real-time, much less, considering that the unknown factor is life-threatening. As we know, this threat comes in two flavors: the potential consequences of the disease and halting everything for months. The level of uncertainty resulted from this can be seen as the catalyst of many other crises arise from the virus.  

Among questions and answers, false or reliable, the main question can only be: what is the true potential of acquiring the disease, to avoid it, and how to adapt to this new reality. Although proper answers are available, it is not simple to discern from what one side says and the opposite one. Dr. Fauci now recommends the use of googles, which make sense, since the virus can penetrate via the eyes. Did I get it that way?

When it comes to questions beyond the scope of my knowledge, I only rely on the information provided by the authorities of the case. In this scenario, scientists are the only authority. Whether there are contrary opinions or not, I simply focus on the credited sci groups providing information. Not what everyone else does, because to do so, it requires finding the proper channels, understanding stuff that is as foreign as the entire universe. Still, at some point, it can be understood, somehow manageable.

I pop questions on my own that are not clearly responded by any source. Such as, is PPE a secure way to avoid contamination? I believed so until, regardless of all the protection I used, I was contaminated. Being one of the “lucky” people that suffered “mild” symptoms compared to those relying on the emergency room, I dare to say: I am glad I survived, I am so happy I wore protection, and I am more pleased I was not the conduct to infect others. However, there is a dichotomy between the info I rely on and my personal experience.

I push the idea in my head, “If I am OK, there is not much to be said about it.” Then, my mind immediately responds: You already know Covid is new and unknown, so be it! OK, I can do that, but that will not stop me from questioning and questioning until I arrive at sound answers. Answers that serve no one but my own head. The reason I am writing this – simply is- that we have to be very careful of the disease as the spread of thoughts that come out of the new reality of today, in our head, not from reliable sources.

Post-infection; I consulted with two institutions to provide me answers. First, I went to the hospital to get a check on “Do I have the disease?” and the second, a private clinic where a physician I know from before, would check if it were Covid what I experienced. The hospital test provided two answers: The first one, the attending physician told me in his view, I passed through Covid considering the symptoms I experienced. As well, the lab results claimed I was positive for the antivirus caused by the disease. The second physician as well concur with the assessment. Again, no one was contaminated by myself.

More questions popped out of my head, the 1st one: How many people have experienced the same case like mine? In this scenario, it is impossible (says my head) that such a person did not do what was necessary to avoid spreading the disease. For instance, my symptoms were: tremendous lack of energy, total lack of appetite, massive body aches, an acute level of dehydration I never experienced before, but, more importantly, the most potent headache I have ever experienced. It was so massive and painful that any move made me feel my head was exploiting. The terrible symptoms lasted just a couple of days; the others still linger and linger, but again, since I am alive, all checks OK. I did not have chest pain, and I was vigilant about that because I have asthma, I am a smoker, and I am in that age that is at high risk. However, once I suspected it could be Covid, I used my nebulizer more often than usual to make sure my lungs were as expanded as possible. As well, is started to do breathing exercises to keep under control of my lungs. So, all worked whether because I am O+ blood type, I am under an estrogen regime, some scientists suspect it helps to avoid significant symptoms, whatever the reason is, I am here writing this blog.

I know there are thousands and thousands of people that seem to disregard this threat. Breaking social distance protocols, do not wear any protection, and simply live their life as if Covid is a conspiracy theory. Everyone is entitled to live their life as chosen, but the question in my head always is: what about spreading the disease furthermore? Hundreds of reported cases around the world state that all sorts o these large gatherings resulted in dozens of new instances, always causing fatalities among them.

I get concerned about people exposing themselves to death but looking at the facts of their behavior. I became numb, that is their business, and I hope they are already immune or have mild symptoms like me, and they do not share their bug with others. There is another factor that takes precedent over that: how long will the diseases hang around with such a non-precautionary attitude? But a new question came to surface in the last couple of days, as a result of further scientific released information—the potential secondary effects of the brain swelling that provided me that massive headache. I visited my physician yesterday, and I asked that question. Her response was she is aware of several dozen people that passed through the same symptoms as mine, and they are reporting effects of the secondary symptoms. Such as: suddenly having a short delay in their thinking or speaking and struggling to find a common word of daily use. Signs that show some kind of impairment in brain functions. However, no scientist knows if they are temporary symptoms, everlasting, they increase in intensity? Nothing! Again and again, Covid is new, is unknown, and there is controversial information about everything related to it. Therefore, the fact that I am “immune” to the disease for who knows how long, does not have so much weight compared to the secondary effects and that pops another as an essential question: will a vaccine avoid that swelling of the brain on everyone? Or the risk of that swelling potentially exists with some people. Well, only time will respond to those and many other questions. So meanwhile, we wait while we continue the lockdown and hope and hope.

US CHECK THE ONLY NEXT STEP TO SAVE US

This flower is called “Dama de Noche”. “Night’s lady”. It opens only one night of the year and the next day it gave in. It contains another flower inside of it.

Although supporters of Donald Trump believe the country is heading in the right direction, the undeniable facts prove we are in the worst scenario the US has been. Trump supporters tend to believe Trump’s words stating he is under a witch hunt and all resulted from fake news. If that would be the case, how come several GOP members are showing their backs to Trump? Why executives from his administration are either hiding from the public eye or quitting their position? The answer is simple and reliable. Trump’s actions have demerit the country domestically and abroad. The outcome is a falling of the American people, international relationships that are seeking on their own new alliances with countries like China, etc. countries like Israel are enacting their own actions due to the lack of leadership from the US, such as the attacks to weapon creation facilities from Iran. Enrichment of nuclear material that would allow them to build their first atomic bomb. Therefore, any smart person stays away from supporting Trump because of our dire status.

Trump has been using everything in his power to derail thinking from the real issues we are facing. Disregard that, but take into account the result of Covid today.

Although I much prefer to ignore the failed policies from Trump about Covid, there are a few items to be said that make the case. Extensive testing will indeed result in massive positive results, and we will surpass the numbers seeing in other countries. We are a country with 330 million people. Therefore the numbers are proportional compared to other countries. However, testing serves one purpose: To know where the infection is spreading, and if tracing is enacted, to know in what direction is going. Basic math can prevent the dispersion of the virus. Trump claims the situation with the virus is not as bad as presented not just by the press, which relies on professional, scientific organizations, and those who claim the crisis in the US is far, far from reaching an end. The advent of an effective vaccine cannot be released in a short time. The reason is the required extensive testing to ensure it is safe to all, and it delivers its intent. So far, scientists have said that such a vaccine will not be safe for the elderly because the aging process already compromises their system. Therefore our solution is to stop the spread for good. We already have too many losses of lives, and contagion will continue for as long as the proper protective measures are not enacted.

America first has been the greatest fallacy the US heard. I compare this lie to George’s Bush Jr. When he announced the preemptive attack to Iraq would be successful, short, and our troops would be back right away. You know the facts if you are well informed.

Trump’s protocols created to continue imputatively in power and pretend he is acting in favor of the US, and the American people, is causing a divide so sharp that it does not allow the country to assess what is getting damaged and what is fixed. An old formula used throughout history, and in all cases showing devastating results. Then, he has been able to break the law protected under our constitution, creating new paths that are destructive, but money-making success stories, such as deregulating laws protecting lands threatened by energy materials extracted in those lands. What we will see – no so long after – is one of the most massive increases in our deficit resulted from the cost of dealing with those consequences.

Right now, thinking about the political process, left or right, is ludicrous. Not that there is something to laugh about it, but what Trump says, what his supporters believe, and the proven results are two different scenarios with several different outcomes. Consequences that could be halted if someone was able to determine that Trump is a cheater to the US by examining his tax returns. I want to know about that, not just because his smarts are a clear sign of perverted criminal acts, but he, his family, and pose have been becoming many folds richer than they were before four years ago.

Whether our situation is extremely dire or not, we ought to fix all that. It will take time, and very likely taxes for everyone would go up to keep the nation afloat. However, the number one issue for the next few months is to make sure that a landslide elects Biden, so Trump does not start ranting and whining about a crooked election. He has been setting the path to building such claim, and right-wingers believe it.

Although our domestic crisis demands prompt and stern action, there is an impending issue that requires to be the #1 issue to be dealt with. Our position in the financial, political, diplomatic and trade fronts, is a top priority if we care about losing supremacy in the world, or we do not mind China or Russia take our place leading the world. They are not our enemies because if they were, having a war with them will result in an III WW that no one can afford. Both countries have been moving in that direction steadily, and both are set to trigger an armed conflict that we have nothing to win. We see the threats in the sea south of china and Hong Kong. Russia is keeping a sort of muted profile to avoid conflict with China, the US, Israel, and the European Union. Our placement in those regards is to respond militarily, and that will be it. Such will become an end to the US, and the rest of the world will suffer as much because the currency trading all economic matters is the dollar. It will need to go – to allow any other country to take control of the monetary realm, hence the world’s power.

It is sad, irritating, and heavily concerning that a sector of the population is not looking in the right direction. A direction that is the only path to bettering America and that one is to deliver what is needed to the entire population. Divided as is, there is no destination to reach that place. The bottom line, not even the people believing in Trump can be the recipients of that benefit because a fragmented country cannot give to one or another sector. Instead, smart people like Trump, there are many at-home, can funnel of what is for the American people to have. Do not forget, the United States of America is = where we are today, in the future as in the past, because we, the working people. The people that support <$$$> the nation with our blood, sweat, and tears and we suppose to get something in return. A check for 1200.00 when you are missing your entire wages for four months (and more to come)?

Do not be naïve and think not for yourself, but the mother country that supports everything we depend on and a small piece of that country will only give a few crumbles to feed to anyone. Thank Donald Trump and his administration for that. Maybe, just maybe, after the next administration is in place, many of the people behind Trump will rest in prison. If not dead, because a single one talking to save his skin, will not survive as a particular predator of young people died no long ago.

HE AND SHE ON THE NON-BINARY DAY

A transsexual love letter to my own self

By Isis Win

After digging through tons of CDs, floppies, Dat tapes, etc., I finally found one of the many poems I wrote a few years ago to my feminine side. Something I did for about ten years and very far from the place I am today.

I had no idea I would be getting to the place I live in today! Yet, after reading this one, no wonder.

This is more than a poem, a letter I wrote to myself in the same fashion I used in my poetry. It looks like I am writing to someone else. Actually, I was. I was addressing my feelings to that unsupported, no comprehended, and vital part of myself. In the same fashion, we refer to her when we are her, and to him, when we are him, I wrote from one to the other one.

To me, such a process is exactly the same when I write a letter to someone I can’t really tell what I have to say. I write the letter, never send it, and burn it as a ceremonial letting go of the person or the issue.

Again, when I wrote this, I had no idea that one day I would really mean what I felt. I would allow my feminine to become physical, real, and live with me, myself.

Although I still am short of fully delivering my sentiment, my feelings about my duality are as strong as they were before.


Maybe my writing is not that powerful or clear, but my feelings are, and I dearly love them.

Thanks, and enjoy it!

Isis


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March 29, 1996. Los Angeles, California

This is a short letter to share with you what you and your friendship mean to me. From all the people I’ve met, you are the one I feel deserves the words that come out of my actions and feelings when you are present. This is the most challenging thing for me to do, since my actions come out of my heart spontaneously, without request or hesitation. Putting my feelings and thoughts on a piece of paper demands the maximum of my consciousness. Not only that, but it challenges my fears of openness to let you know how much you can expect from me and how committed and invested I am in this relationship.

I feel total nakedness in the middle of the dark with the spotlight on me. I don’t fear your scrutiny but my openness and vulnerability. Your presence in my life has brought within me a striving for honesty, directness, and the sincerity that I have in the past reserved only for those who offered me theirs.

With you, there is no need for me to expect the same from you because there are peace and space for me to roam in the realm of my intimacy. No need to protect, cover or armor the most intimate parts of me, many of which nobody else knows about, yet parts which I can share all with you. That, simultaneously, brings the deepest closeness within my own self: full of love, full of understanding, support, forbearing. All because of you.

When I am around you, your attention and presence bring the giving and attentive, grounding my presence around you, caring and sharing for the wonderful outcome of our dancing together. That, to me, is friendship. There is no abuse, no infliction of a struggle simply because there is no struggle, but simplicity. No place looks empty when you are around. No place lacks sound for the soul when you are around, and it never matters where I go, you go with me.

Your presence in your utmost ethereal is always a nutrient of mine. Making me feel whole, complete with all my maleness, and staying in touch with all your femaleness, closing the loop of the energy that makes me creative, adventurous, mysterious, strong, intense, inquisitive, and myself. Who I am and who I’m not do not matter, because I am always present Present with you and with myself, creating an unprecedented intensity that builds steadily the necessary strength in the journey of life. This intensity also brings the light of me and your presence and provides me the cover that shades the weaknesses of my victories, my endeavors, in the learning process of life, what it was, and revealing what I want it to be, for you and for me.

Your friendship is a not solo flight. It is an invitation for me to be present and tuned for the new risings in my growth while having a helping hand available to seed every day in your fertile ground. All of this doesn’t have a meaning without you, without your friendship. I say so, as I watch the growth created by your hand in this realm of mine. You are the one to harvest from mine, while I care and wait for the growth of yours. I seed and water, I cover and feed, for the day to come and show you what has grown in you, as you witness the growth in me.

In this friendship of mine, there are not unfulfilled requests, neither unnecessary demands. Just needs met, desires accomplished, dreams to follow, together and alone. It is in the tandem of our energy where the secret lives, and it is in the attention given, where the dance takes place.

In this friendship of ours, there is room for both of us to breathe, turn around, stop, go, see, feel, and orchestrate from simplicity to magnitude. In this friendship of ours, there is space for expressing without sensing judgment, exploring with no restrictions, risking with no consequences, receiving without asking, giving without invading, learning without prying. There is enough room for tears and laughter, genuine and discovery. This friendship of ours is ours, and no one disowns it. In the realm of freedom, we explore each other with passion, knowing that the discovery of each other represents the encounter with ourselves. The love and lust for each other represent the preservation of our utmost selves. The balance and trust of each other represent the evolution of our soul in the most intimate confinement, but we are not alone at all, because you have yourself and I have mine, and because we have the capability, willingness and desire to share our oneself with each other. In that way, we find the most precious parts of each other, without ignoring the counterparts that make us wholesome and unabridged.

You represent to me the opportunity to prove my self, to mirror myself and my actions with a meaningful outcome, to persevere and improve my surroundings through strengthening my inner self, with all my parts and the places that this dance of us takes us.

You represent my beloved self with all the grace I can grant without request. The same that comes from the deepest and more meaningful parts of my soul, my body and my mind, and all this is present, thanks and through your presence in my life.

CONVERSION THERAPY?

Like an omen, two fronts colliding. Sun was out and then poured, just like with J.K.

By Isis Win

It is almost a scandal the declaration of J.K. Rowling, the author of Harry Potter stating of having what it takes to reverse gender incongruence in the born body of children. There is so much raw material to be chewed about this issue and in all regards. It becomes clear, Mrs. Rowling is clueless as to what happens in these cases. Therefore, her words, in reality, created a reverse reaction on people that know as little about transsexualism as she does. Consequently, they oppose to that call from young children and point it as something to be fought and removed. The opposite of what has been happening in many countries that are adapting their laws and protocols to include this minority as any other ordinary citizen.

It is ridiculous that we are here again after several previous attempts from other people to create a wave of practice to resolve this issue as they believe it can be determined. Changing the perception of the children that claim not reaching congruence with their born body. All failed unsubstantiated theories that miss the core of the true nature of these cases. This type of “therapy” has gone so bad in the past, people forced to attend it, have shown signs of abuse and cruelty. Psychological and emotional abuse because they were not able to reach the plateau the therapist presumes should be available to them.

The first premise to be check here is: why do some people not only are unable to see and learn what these cases are, and recognize that they do not have the authority and knowledge to decide who is right and not when a crime is not committed. They tend to see transsexuality as an unnatural tantrum of some children that challenge the status that has prevailed through hundreds of years. This, disregarding that in the past, many cultures did not have an issue about it, and those cultures respected, honored non-binary people. A certain level of integration of those people that happened to be different from most of their population. That is recorded in history throughout thousands of years.

The second one is what credentials do they have to challenge a factual reality around the world, which preexisted in our modern times and fail to present any evidence to claim such is wrong, and it can be fixed. I have not found any argument or documentation on the part of J.K. that shows she knows something that I do not know, although I have lived with this issue throughout all my adult life, after rejecting my self-perception for so long. If I could reverse my inner perception (then), I would have done it. Because accepting being in a body that did not belong to me, was extremely bizarre and unacceptable because that is what it was dictated by society, and the consequences could be drastic. Do I know better than Dr. J.K.? or she knows something that could make my life less complicated and painful?

The third is a question with an assumption. Is Dr. J.K. worried about the pains and tribulations suffered by non-binary people or simply she is convinced that is wrong and unnatural? I am clueless as what prompts her to assume whatever, but what I know is that children should be raised in a loving and peaceful environment, so they become what their parents want them to be. Adjusted, clear thinking, reliable, well behaved, and caring person that is good in all corners of their lives. I assume that this author, not a therapist, most likely lacked through her growing years, what she denies to non-binary children. Read above again if it is not clear.   

During the last two decades, parents around the world have educated themselves to grasp what is involved and how to help children presenting this scenario. The result, they follow the proper protocols guided by a specialist and support their kid according to those protocols. When the child is approaching the appropriate age, and after a conscious observation of their psychological and emotional status, a green flag is waved, so the child may pursue their gender congruence. Contrary to what has been said, these young children are not prescribed hormones of their opposite born gender. They are prescribed inoffensive hormone blockers. Those for the sake of not allowing the standard gender features to develop until a judgment is reached. That presents the opportunity for transsexuals to continue their growth in the corresponding gender.

Sadly, this type of approach is available to educated parents that live in a free country that does not stigmatize people because of their differences. As well, it requires some level of solvency to consult with specialists. If the non-binary minority could use some help, that can only be support, understanding, and respect.

Dr. J.K. triggered a hell among older transsexual women, in particular. However, popular opinion as well reacted in favor and against this character that supposedly is about empowering children. I believe this polemic and controversy will be short-lived since J.K. will not be able to produce evidence of knowing something that the rest of the world unknown. However, simultaneously, she is incendiary propelling square and extremist religious thinkers that, in their view, the existence of men in this life, still is a design of creation by who they believe. Those views claim people can only be in shape or form their scriptures declare.  Forgetting the original message of the illuminated, such as Jesus Christ, Buddha, and all religious figures that propagated the message love yourself, and others, as you love the lord. I see the lost love in this controversy.

An essential part of this equation is the reaction of a few transsexual people that exercise their anger and anguish towards this woman. If you are there, offended and pissed by this “revelation,” instead of despising the “enemy” as you portrait them, speak about the findings through your experience that makes you a better person because you are reaching or reached your gender congruence. I am there as thousands and thousands of transsexuals, men, and women. People that once fixed their incongruence found a full self, and that enhance their lives many folds. On that note, congruence s not found through stimulating ideas. Not even the most potent drug can change self-perception, and if there should be a general goal by any and all people, that is to find congruence within their self-awareness and self-congruence. So, Mrs. Rowling, with all respect, you are mistaken, wrong, and out of place.

J.K. RAWLING GENDER CONVERSION THERAPY I WANT IT!

Orchids from my mother’s collection

By Isis Win

I have read so much convulsion about J.K. Rawling declaration that he has the answer to the conundrum of gender assignation. She claims to have the proper knowledge to stop a person from experiencing gender incongruence. Gosh! I hope she is true because I would love to try it!

You do not know me, so I may wonder why on earth would I like to go through that, right? Well, all started when I was a little boy. I do not recall precisely, but it could not be more than 8 YO, possibly 6. The reason I believe those numbers if because that is the age I was when I went to visit my cousins during summer vacation. Just three years. At that time, I played with my male cousin and his two sisters. We mostly played ball games, and sometimes the girls protested not wanting more ball games, so would play something else. One day, they wanted to play tea. We all agreed, and they suggested we dress in their clothes. My male cousin did not want to change his clothes, but I was more than drawn to do so. I have wanted to dress in girl’s clothes I do not remember since when, but I could not because I had no girl’s clothes to wear. My sister was too little for me to fit into hers.

We dressed, played, and when my aunt saw us, she gave me a hard time. She was gentle and sweet, so no harm was done, but she warned me that if I would do that again, she would have to tell my mother. I did not want any trouble with my mother. However, the following year we met again, and this time I asked them if I could wear their clothes. They consented, and I was dress as a girl, and I remember perfectly well how immensely happy I was. That changed because I was discovered again, and the warning this time was pretty scary. I stopped doing that, and we did not get together again, except when parties, celebrations, etc.

After the second experience, I learned boys are boys and girls are girls. So, anything girlie seeing in me would be pretty bad, and chances of facing mother, even dad, were too high. Throughout the rest of my life, I had thoughts about it, and from time to time during my teens, I wore my mother’s clothes, her lipstick, hair adorns, etc. it was great, and it was terrible. Fear, shame, and guilt wrapped me pretty badly afterward, so I promise to myself never to do it again.

I did it a few more times, but each time I swore not doing it again. The itch to do it never stopped, but the older I became, the more information I got about something I should not do ever! I pretty much turned off that light and remained shut down until I reached my fifties. All I knew is that such was wrong, bad, sinful, and deserving of a bad penalty. Punishment for being a man trying to be a woman. That became my secret that I kept for so long, but it never stopped bothering me. I tried counselors, but that did nothing for me because I was not able to open my mouth about it!

I was getting closer to my mid-fifties when I started to realize that what I experienced was not unique, bad, and sinful or anything that should produce me fear, guilt, and shame, so I started to open a tiny crack to see it. My mind always fought that inclination of mine. But the call was more substantial, much larger, so I avoided to dress again, while I struggled – not just because that call – but how on earth I felt being a woman while being a man is a much cooler gender. Men can do everything and anything and everyone celebrates that, instead women, well you know. Everything that came into my mind was opposed to considering that stupid thought. Frankly, the whole thing seemed to be a stupid idea. When I reached my mid-fifties, something was bothering so much that finally, I checked in with a therapist, opened my big, tiny mouth, and started to unveil what was inside of myself. One thing leads to another one, and at some point, I considered the possibility of attending a conference for people like myself. People that can find congruence in their born gender. I spent an entire week living as a woman. I attended several workshops, talk to dozens of people with a similar issue, had breakfast, lunch, and dinner as a woman, I even went clubbing as a woman! When I was returning home from that week, my thoughts were: I have never felt so great in my entire life. Everything felt normal, and for the first time in my life, I felt so complete! I never wanted to go back to my old self. Well, that is easy, simple, and pain-free to say. However, I took my time, continue working with a therapist, and finally, I arrived at a place that I knew, I am embracing myself as who and what I am and I have never done that before. I started my plans to transition after coming out to my family: mother, siblings, wife, daughters, and friends. I lost most of my friends, but the family stayed with me.

A little more than fifteen years ago, I was engaged in HRT (hormones) started to live like a normal woman, and I never went back to my old self, to whom I am incredibly grateful for keeping up with me and my issue. However, it was time to say bye to that dear friend of mine.

The following fifteen years after that move have been greater than anything I experienced before. Both ends, the black and white feelings, and experiences in life became many folds more intense, but as well, both are quire gratifying. I am glad to have the opportunity of having this unique chance in life, although it came so late but it is worth it.

What J.K Rawling is offering is nothing short but bullshit. It is impossible to reverse what is not. Denying one’s self is the worst of all the worst mistakes a human being could make. I learned that after fifty-some years of life and whatever I have left, I will treasure it as it has been my entire life. Because the reality found is: this is my whole life. Denying it was painful, harsh, numbing, humiliating, deprecating, and much more. So I can’t envision how someone thinks to be capable of creating a conversion that denies the self and life. That is how little she knows about gender incongruence. So how can she bring congruence? The lady, regardless of how talented, smart, and wealthy she is, is clueless not just about gender congruence but about life. Maybe she does not know what that is – because- if she would, instead of thinking something so demeaning, she would think something that builds character, self-confidence, and love, and she would sponsor young people that lack the means and support to find themselves in a society that is lost itself. Do I need to say more?

NEED AN AI BRAIN REPLACEMENT

Bird’s eye view of Chapultepec trees, MX. ISO 100, Canon 5D 1/100s, F3.5, 80mm

The situation in the US points: there is a sector of the population unable to do simple math. 2+2=4, 2-2=0. But that sector seems to miss that calculation. Example: President Trump declared Covid is not a threat to the US; all was under control =2. In the following weeks and months, the situation crept to the point that more than 100K lives perished, and the number of confirmed infections exceed more than .5M. That equals another 2. Both numbers either result on zero if subtracting – or 4 if adding. That = the assessment shared by Trump is not reliable. Therefore, trust is put under a cloud of doubt. Either we accept that fact, or we analyze our brain’s results.

It is annoying to repeat and repeat the facts that tell us something is creating a stalemate in moments that the country requires to be progressive. Progressive not towards the right or the left, that results irrelevant considering what is a stake. Therefore, thinking linearly does not serve any purpose. The necessary element right there is consciousness. The ability to clearly see the connected components, do the math, and proceed accordingly. Well, in a divided environment, possibly while one considers the situation one way, the other one sees it the opposite. Again, consciousness may resolve this issue.

What we are facing is much more than what an alive person can recall. Corona, for instance. For the benefit of the doubt, I am throwing some nonrealistic elements, the same that could be the consideration of some people in that group. E.g., Covid is an attack from Chinese or China. The conscious thinking process can go in that direction and stay focused on that and miss the results of that attack, which is the critical matter in this case. Another one, Covid, is not as dangerous or life-threatening as said by scientists. Numbers around the world state thousands and thousands of deaths and forecast a multiplication of those numbers. Following a + train of thought and common sense: whatever it is, the spread keeps moving forwards, more people are infected = more deaths. If you do not want to die from it, then your options are: not going out at all or, if so, wear full PPE and keep proper social distance and the rest of the protocols. Doing so may save your life, a bad experience of getting very ill and suffer the results, or not getting ill = the spread have one less chance to contaminate others. That as well = the economy or my return to “normal” life will happen sooner than later—simple math and thinking, not just linearly thinking, presents the right answers.

Racism: the information that triggered this massive campaign to protest police abuse against blacks has been, for a long time, evident. Whether it is justified or not, demonstrating against the police abuse requires doing in a civilized and conscientious matter, or it is throwing gas to the fire. Dr. Luther King or Gandhi showed to the world that avoiding a spread of the fire pacific demonstrating works. However, among the demonstrators, many blacks were allowed to break that pattern. Looting, screaming foul language, braking things is not reasonable. Even supporters of the cause get very annoyed by knowing those facts. Stupid things such as painting a street with a consistent message that triggers the anger from people who disagree with reckoning racism prevail in the country or those who believe it, maybe perceived as gas, have been thrown to the fire. What gain could be there? A white person clearly annoyed, paints black that sign—a no good nor resolved anything. The fire is growing out of proportion.

Facing the Covid threat, the China threat, the Russian threat, the Iran threat, the N. Korea threat, the Jihadist threat, and the list goes on and on = we Americans should stay together and demand from our government to procure all safety actions. Hence, we remain robust and resilient or… Adding a divisive element created by politicians or pseudo politicians, all it does is to break any possible pattern that could ensure safety for all Americans. Simple math is applied.

Anyone with a decent knowledge of history, such as the Briton history, will find that the rulers manipulated the masses to gain the best control of them, therefore exploit whatever is necessary to achieve their goals. In all historical chapters, to provide what is just – to the people they rule – was not true. That example should suffice to understand that if we think linearly and based on the rhetoric of our rulers, the promised gain is never gained. The ruler must be honest, and we must keep the checks and balances rolling, so there is a gain.

There are three parts to the division of what could affect in both directions our future. #1 our analytical process lacks or has the needed investment to do the right math. # 2 what triggers our analytical process lacks or has a proper foundation to arrive at an educated guess. #3 we are or not genuinely invested in fixing numbers one and two, so we arrive at a place in which questions are answered, and the results are visible and reliable or the exact opposite end.

On that note, nationalists wish America would only be whites that pass their approval. That isn’t going to work! Hitler and his people tried to exclusively preserve what they considered the pure human quality human race with their Aryan approach. Did they succeed? What were the results?

Blacks, Latinos, Jews, LGBT, etc. on the opposite side want to exercise their freedom as the USA conceived it. Will that arrive at a solution?

We are facing massive damage, not just to our country and people. Our standing before the world is sinking and sinking, and while some throw temper tantrums, ambitious nations, and people take the place, we temporarily abandoned. Once we want it back, we will find that as history points, a decaying empire decays, and there is no return. An addition of poor leadership and poor followers = 2-2= 0, and we are moving in that direction.

Continuing this pattern financially, we are in doom land if Covid is not over right away. Socially we are in the worse dystopian status a leading nation could be. Therefore, our leadership role stops being such so others can take over that role. Who do we choose to take our role? Historically in the past, not just one nation destroys the leading role of another country. First, the people of that moving upward nation gets involved, then other nations and their people push them all upwards, following suit.

Meanwhile, our leadership and us – are pushing downward. That equals = we lack the right IQ power to protect and defend our nation simply because someone is telling us, we are alright, better than ever, and we have everything under control. Is that so? If you disagree, check with Watson because its response is precisely the opposite.

SERIOUS THREAT LOOMING OVER THE USA

4th of July D.C. 2008

I wish not being capable of thinking, seeing, hearing because the result has been lately, I get overly concerned over recent events in the US. Bad news reporting makes me think bad news too.

What I see right now is a warning about the potential attacks against anybody that represents the opposite of what some section of America is expressing, the white supremacy. The battle against blacks, foreign migrants, LGBT people, Jews, and anything that supremacists want to remove from the country has started.

Right now, my sentiment has been triggered by the speech from DT at Rushmore on the 4th of July celebration. He claims he and the country are threatened by the far-left fascism, He makes it look like a direct threat to all right-wing Americans. Such is a deceit to get a granted a favor from the white population that sides with his policies. Aside from been dividing speech, it is another cueing for the white supremacists against the mentioned groups (lots of religious groups among them), and such is a direct trigger to unrest white Americans nationwide. On the other side, intelligence had reported groups of supremacists are moving to key areas to do what we know they do. Nothing pacific nor coming along with what America is about. Next to that, frequent attacks by supremacists have been reported across the nation, such as the throw of a vehicle against a group of demonstrators in Seattle. Also, a transwoman was killed a few days ago. Last night shootings in several cities took place, killing two minors.

Many of the actions taken by white supremacists do not get enough attention from the media. It will always require a courageous witness videoing the event and put in online so, the evidence is right there. Although cell taping happens, it is a rare case most of the time. A few days ago, I saw a video online of a black kid resisting arrest. Although there were two big strong officers involved and one police woman, the kid managed to make them struggle, and as a result, a plastic bag was placed in his head. In another incident, a couple threatened a black woman with their guns, and more. That speaks about the resurgence of supremacy taking action in the country and it is triggered by Trump.

In the international arena, Iran is enriching fuel for an atomic weapon. China is moving its marines to exercise in the south of the region; the US is following suit sending carriers to the area. Perhaps that is not a threat, but because DT is feuding with everyone, it is apt to consider that we are looking at a potential reaction that can trigger an international conflict.

We are in a place that most administrations have avoiding since II WW. But the concern of mine now is domestic. I suspect the actions of supremacists are just a tad of what gradually is becoming the political status of the US and that threats everyone not aligned by white nationalists. So, my advice to everyone is to keep safe and a much larger distance than social distance. This situation is seen in almost all countries, it is just a warning.

According to polls, Trump lost his chances for reelection. That can be the trigger for that sector of America to start revolting in demonstration of their opposition for not having him again at the WH. Clearly, DT will accuse the electoral process of being a fraud, so distress stars right there. Unless we are willing to allow DT to take a second term, the potential of a serious threat is impending.

Now, the core of the issue. There are no official numbers about how many citizens are part of the nationalist “movement.” However, what it makes clear is that losing the civil war by federalists did not stop the movement to oppose to ethnic minorities, LGBT, Jews, and all the groups they aim to destroy since those war days. A phenomenon that even academics fail to understand because it simply does not make any sense. However, minorities will prevail, and discontent from those people will remain. The result is clear. The US has been dimming all traces of what made us – what we were – up to the time Trump took over the WH. Human and civic rights have been threatened through the period. Since Trump has been in power. Initiatives to secure the wellbeing of people in the world and the planet have been shut down one way or another one. The UN, NATO, WHO, EPA, and most organizations that watch what threatens our future have been belittled and diminish by this administration. Ridiculously, in detriment of nationalists as well, but their frustration against the direction the country has taken since II WW has made them passive terrorists of their own land. The presence of a democrat first black president, his eight years in office, and the advent of a republican representing the exact opposite of him and his presidency, have triggered what we can see is the slow destruction of the fabric that made the USA.

I have refused to land on one side of the fence or the other one, but the circumstances present now, force me to side with one of the two sections that divide our country. I have chosen the liberal side because mistaken or not, they pursue to follow what the framers wanted as the core of what this new nation should be. The same aim and goal that have created our place before the world and history. All my thinking and feeling draws me to become part of the many Americans that can avoid the demise of our country. Exactly what nationalist claim, but in reverse order. The extreme right is doing precisely that, so we have no choice but to react equally and more robust. After all, the majority of Americans are on this side that has nothing to do with left, center, or right. It is about an entire nation that cares and protects its citizens against all threats.

Nationalists are under the belief that DT is a man that cares about an America as it should be, not as is. But the facts prove that such is not the case. He wants reelection and not for the sake of the country but to achieve his goals that are nothing less than personal and economic. Nationalists are deceived by their anguish, same that DT uses for his purposes, but once Trump is out, they will figure that their efforts were exclusively for the enriching of the Trump family and his pose. Nothing new, but this time it has become as evident as the transparency of water. I wish the US awakens and learns the truth of what is happening, and they realize that we must straighten our path, now that it is possible. Possible for as long as we are a robust and solid nation. We are one!

CAN THE COUNTRY BE CHANGED FOR GOOD?

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By Isis Win

While Trump keeps accusing Americans attempting to change the country into a socialist, fascist nation, he has been triggering a reaction from the sector of the population that is considered a supremacist America. A political maneuver to manipulate that sector of America to win the White house. He accuses the left and does exactly that but in reverse. Trump changed the country for worse.

America in the majority, including so many republicans, conservatives, independents, and most on the left side, concur with the latest assessment by scholars, historians, and independent political analysts; America is going in the wrong direction. There is not a single item that is the antithesis of what America has been, from the moment he sat at the White House.

From the beginning, Trump faced an antagonism to collect the initial cost of the southern border wall. Nearly four billion dollars that were estimated to escalate to thirty billion cost to reach the end of the wall. The opposition was strong and stern, and he was able to fetch some of that money removed from the Defense Department. A move that was considered illegal and unethical. Democrats decided not to challenge that appropriation.

In the following months and years, Trump’s position to control illegal immigration as well was considered inhuman and anti-civil rights. Both ends of the spectrum join this criticism. However, as time went by, republicans realized that fighting Trump was a threat, potentially ending their political career. They stopped presenting their Checks and Balances obligation.

International trade became a challenge for both parties. To this point, there is no indication that the approach can possibly find a solution to a problem; no previous administration could fix it. As a result, we have a cold war with China, and we do not really know the complications of such.

Trump adverted all possible and committed funding to several programs such as the US contributions to the UN, NATO, WHO, EPA, even ended the White House infectious disease program, which was necessary to enact programs since he announcement of a pandemic threat. There had been many other challenges Trump faced, including decisions taken by SCOTUS that supposed to be conservative. As result, Trump continues firing any member of our government, including his cabinet, that questions his decision making of national and international policy.

Trump’s daily part of his presidential routine to attack, criticized anyone, including the press, for anything that he is in disagreement with. Social networks, such as Tweeter and Facebook, started to monitor his messages, removing several considered offensive, dividing, and enticing to create a crisis among the American people. As well, he has taken credit even of policies designed during the Obama administration and exaggerates the results of his actions.

In a few words, egocentric Trump has no visioned of his actions, and he has appeared to the US and the world as an unfit, perhaps derailed president. Result? Other countries either had expressed no interest in dealing with Trump or simply walk away when they foresee that possibility.

The upcoming months are a critical time for Trump. Approaching presidential elections, the polls have shown he has been losing two-digit points against the presumed candidate for the Democratic Party, Joe Biden. Anticipating a possibility of losing the election, Trump has stated in many of his rallies that the upcoming election must likely be fraudulent. As well, his belittling of Biden, any potential runner in his ticket, has increased. The growing crisis of the spread of Covid 19 and the death toll are other issues that are removing him from the possibility of a second term. According to several people, it seems that Trump is doing everything at his reach to lose the election. Most likely, he is having second thoughts of his actions because now he is accusing the democrats of changing the country if they win and turn it into a communist nation with a fascist regime. So far, there is no basis to claim such a drastic political change, so the opinion of more than 60% of the Americans is that the country already changed for worse.

My take in this drama is that it is true. The days of Reaganism are overshaded by the image resulted from a republican president that lack of all republican view and platform. So far, Trump has shown the world that he lacks all basic education to assess any problem and policies, but he is not aware of such. Contrary to that, he claims to be a sound genius, and his policies benefit the country. However, he fails to show reliable signs of such belief. On another side, the only winners of his presidency are the 1%, his family members, and pose. Clearly, at the end of his administration, he will be a multi-billionaire resulted in the businesses that have been ONLY possible to his position as the president of the wealthiest nation of the world.

This a sad, pathetic reality that the country will face for who knows how long. The US has been embarrassed through the entire world, and we had lost several positions before the world that allowed us to lead regarding economies, trade, manufacturing, innovations, discoveries, intellectual power, international policy and ethics, science and technology, and more. The US was until recently the leader and example of human and civil rights before the world, but today our position is so dim that even challenging China’s abuse of Muslims and Bangkok will be seen as hypocrisy that is supported by the 30 million Americans.

Now, we have a clear picture, much clearer after his speech at Rushmore that we are a changed country. What we most Americans want is to return to what America was before Trump. Result? Four wasted years and trillions of dollars to pay off.